Growing Pains

by Courtney Swain

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released November 10, 2017

Growing Pains
Songs & string arrangements by Courtney Swain
Produced & Mixed by Vince Welch
Engineered by Bradford Krieger at Big Nice Studio
Mastered by Randy Roos at Squam Sound
Cover illustration by Ellie Gill
Album design by Lois Harada
Track artwork by Kristilyn

Courtney Swain - voice, piano
Abby Swidler - violin
Abigale Reisman - violin
Anna Stromer - viola
Valerie Thompson - cello
Additional vocals on Prickly Thorn by Abby, Abigale, Anna, and Valerie

This album is brought to you from me, but it was only possible with these people in my life:
Vince W. Evan S. Lisa O. Mom. Dad. Judi & my Houston family. Abby S. Abigale R. Anna S. Valerie T. Brad K. Liz F. Chris B. Ben L. Jessica K. Gavin W.A.

(c) & (p) 2017 Courtney Swain

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“A gorgeous blend of overwhelming vocal talent, modern keyboard techniques, and contemporary sophistication.”
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Track Name: Wish Bone
Underneath the green grass lie your bones
Wrapped in bitter tears
Brooding on memories

A broken but safe home
Dreamcatchers line the walls
But nightmares have their own backdoors

You never said goodbye
Or counted your final breaths
You didn't see the smoke
Drifting down the hall

Floating above the carnage
Cold toes wrapped in soot and char
Naked in hot skin

False hope and false moons
Your silence screamed night and noon
Chiding our prayers calling you home

You never said goodbye
Still waiting to regret the days
Your face was proud and bare
Ready to die alone

Each speckle of dust bursts into a flame
And I'll soon forget where you came from
Light the candle at both ends
Raise the voices 'til they soar
Hearts lift the sky, there the deities
From the rubble of your corpse
I'll choose only the best
Somewhere inside there's a wish bone
I'll take it in my hand
Walk the miles through the grass
Look out to the sea
There your spirit is free
Track Name: Snow Globe
Here I am in my snow globe
It's a tiny place, but I've got plenty of woe to stuff it up to the brim
Wind me up
Shake me up and down and watch as I twirl
The music drags me along

I've got a smile plastered on my face
But inside I sigh, I'm not sane
Not worth it anymore

Remember that one Christmas stocking
A whole year's worth of thought
And all I got was a crappy card
With a donation in my name to save the ducks
Well I don't give a fuck about the ducks
'Cause I just burned every bridge I got

And I never thought I'd be alone

Here I am in my snow globe
It's been cold and frost for so obscenely long
I heard it's warm outside
But I can't tell from the bulletproof glass
I see the shadows of my buddies outside

They've got a smile plastered on their face
But inside they sigh, I'm not sane
Not worth it anymore

Remember that one time we spoke of love
And the other million times we sat and stewed
As accusations stifled every atom in the house
Well, now you're free to go
'Cause I just burned every bridge I got

And I never thought I'd be alone

Don't be scared of the people
Don't be scared of the dark
Don't be scared of the people
They're just trying to talk

Don't be scared of the consequences of speaking up
Don't be scared, they're just humans
They're just trying to talk

Remember that one time we spoke of love
Track Name: Moon Stalker
When I came back to this barren town
The streets sang louder than my dying ears
Stalking the moon across the night
Pen and paper let my tongue unwind

A werewolf eager to be charmed
Learning how to stay in the barn
Every ledge calls out to me
Throw your legs off my balcony

Growing pains, the thickened skin
Grew rings around my heart each year
The tighter bands were bitter hills

I spent a decade
Staring back at bedroom walls
Now I'm trying to reclaim
Every syllable in my name
I spent many nightmares
Waltzing mirrors in the dark

Now where can I rest peacefully
Is there a moon stalker colony
Where we stay awake silently
Watching the world sleep

Growing pains, the thickened skin
Grew rings around my heart each year
The tighter bands were bitter hills

Now where can I rest peacefully
Is there a moon stalker colony
Where we stay awake silently
Watching the world sleep
Track Name: Glitter Bomb
Red and white ribbons
Tied up on highways
Birds of a feather flock home
As the moon hangs thin
Like an eyelash dropped from the sky

Swimming in a snow angel
Of fresh white lies
Steeping my words in a glass of champagne
So, where to cold-hearted people go for the holidays

If you're not riding reindeer, hanging off a mist of smoke
Well, I hope you're having some fun
I decided late last night that I'd rather be alone
If I can't be with you, I'd rather be alone

All I want this year is an aching heart
I'll be content just to know that it could beat so hard

If you're not waiting, bated breathing by the telephone
Well, I hope at least you're having some fun
I decided late last night that I'd rather be alone
If I can't be with you, I'd rather be alone

If I can't look you straight into your eyes
Please know there's something inside
Underneath the frills and bows
And talking 'bout the weather and the wars
Tomorrow we'll slip back into being strangers
Thoughts stashed deep in journals
I just want to burst my heart wide open
Glitter bomb your quiet eyes

But no, I'll just be alone
If I can't be with you, I'll just be alone
If I can't be with you, I'd rather be alone
Track Name: Prickly Thorn
The air between our lips
Grew into a thicket
I took your thumb and pricked it
On a thorn in my side
Just to remind myself of the taste of love


All the good times
Saved in a piggy bank
I smashed the glass on the floor
So we could rummage and knick our toes
Just to remind ourselves of the taste of love

Swallowed inside your matreshka
Of the sweetest things in your life
How are you so sure that I'm the one

Our forest grew around the quirks of the landscape
Branches tangles as we pulled in closer
Weaving a bird's nest that held our tears into a mirror

Burrowed in the warmth of your arms
The sweetest place I've ever known
Close your eyes and we'll be alone
And I'll stop twisting the knife now

I've never felt like god
Save for when I reaped your tears
Welling up in sockets
A small electric storm

Just to remind ourselves of the taste of love
Just to remind yourself

Our ocean swells around the shores of our choices
Rounding broken glass into smokey jewels
A school of memories gaze up out of the tide pool

Burrowed in the warmth of your arms
The safest place I've ever known
Close our eyes and we'll be alone
And I'll stop twisting the knife now
Bleed into the carpet
Red's my favorite color

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