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Fog
03:41
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If I had any sort of patience
I'd sit here waiting for the dawn
When you come walking out of silence
Out of the fog of my infatuation
But darling, I go running into the cold
Deep in the maze of our love
And I feel you walk by me
And I realize that I'm lost
If you had mittens for my fury
And if I had a temper of a log
We'd both be happy in the distance
No more bitter howling like a dog
But darling, I go crushing every tiny truce
Scared of the backlash of good
And I feel you walk by me
And I realize that I'm lost
When you wake up all alone
You know where I've been gone
Bruised and battered in the forest
With the fot of my infatuation
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Lila
03:56
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You called me up to tell me you were sick of the cold
You swore you'd leave but morning finds you back in his arms
You look guilty as you confess, he's like a very good drug
You come home late tripping on your tall shiny shoes
You drag him to bed and giggle as you kiss until you bruise
When you wake up in the morning, did he remember your name
I'm not pretty like you
I don't where colors or hues
That blind minds when I speak, I don't glow like you do
But the neon and alcohol
It rubs you raw and sore
Do you know who you are, when you reflect in the window
When you look back walking in your stainless gown
Is your diamond larger than the load on your back
Does it justify the secrets
I'm not pretty like you
I don't break bottles or pews
I watch you dazzle time, selling youth and beauty
But the neon and alcohol
It rubs you raw and sore
Do you know who you are, when you reflect in the window
Lila, Lila wake up
Your heart is falling apart
You're hiding from the woman you can't recognize yourself
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Dreams
04:05
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There's a freak show trapped in a body, it's running down the sidewalk
It's headed straight for me it, wants to play with my brain box
I wriggle and I squirm, I'm queasy from the commotion
He's begging me to try a sip of his potion
I'm a dear in head lights, choking on emotion
But I dare not make a sound
20/20 foresight, it's a fascinating notion
I take a swig and force it down
One sip and you will learn to dig in real deep
One sip and you will learn to cut throat and leap
One sip and you will learn to heal bones in need
One sip and you will learn to believe in, believe in dreams
There's a freak show growing in my body, a beautiful tumor
I can't keep it contained, it's seeping into the ether
I struggle and I slip, it's taking over my person
A silent change that lights my voice on fire
I'm a force of nature, waiting to unleash
All the thoughts pent up inside
20/20 foresight, it only gets better
I take a swig and force it down
One sip and you will learn to grow roots from seeds
One sip and you will learn to take on any beast
One sip and you will learn to find all you seek
One sip and you will learn to believe in, believe in...
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You Look So Beautiful
03:15
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Remember you're always alone
Love will come and love will go
Search for the passion in your lover's eyes
And shiver at the hate it could hide inside
Breaking up seems like a breeze
When you're in love and lost at sea
But when you need to reclaim the key to your heart
The knot is too tangled to pull apart
You look so beautiful when you cry
It brings me right back to your side
You know I love you, you know I love you
Don't go don't go, you know I love you
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The Last Song
04:31
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I'm tired of being tired
Is this the last song, that comes after the last song
I'm ready to fall apart
I got the gun in my hand, I'm waiting for the 'go ahead'
Every morning I peel myself out of the bed
Every morning like a bandaid
The blood rushes out
Bold bones, brittle skin
Why can't I break my body or lose my mind
I'm far past stretched thin
I can't be brave or strong or bold anymore
I'm tired of feeling desparate
Is this the last song, that comes after the last song
Every morning I drag myself out of the door
Every morning like a dead weight
My heart is sinking down
Bold bones, brittle skin
Why can't I break my body or lose my mind
I'm far past stretched thin
I can't be brave or strong or bold anymore
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Pious
01:14
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Serial
03:06
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Everyone makes mistakes, so the first offense is excused
Records will be erased, and I may go on with life as I choose
Second time rolls around, and I find myself alone
In the bathroom of an ice cream store, staring into thin air
Courtney that's fucked up
I don't know how did it happen again
Courtney that's fucked up
I don't know why was I so naive
I remember the faces
I remember fading out
I remember coming to
And I remember the blood I lost
I'm watching the universe tilt so slightly out of control
Perspectives fall askew, and pills are larger than a swallow
I wear make-up to fake the cheer, but it washes down in dark streaks
Like the claws of the beasts inside, exploding into regret
Courtney that's fucked up
I don't know how do I take it back
Courtney that's fucked up
I don't know how long do I wait
To forget the faces
Forget the fading out
To forget coming to
And to forget the blood I lost
Then will I do it again?
Then will I do it again?
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One by One
04:01
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Walking down a busy street
Skyscrapers funnel a storm
Winds stand me still
Bright green plants are losing leaves
The water churns a poison stew
We're dying one by one
While I'm stuck scared inside my bed
I forget I don't know the name
Of this fragile vessel tethered to the genes inside my head
I'm sure I"m dying now
One by one I'm counting down
When I stopped to look around
I saw the brushstrokes of clouds
Waiting to cry
Is it worth the long face
When airplanes crash
Waste is trashed
We're dying, dying
Dying one by one
While I'm stuck scared inside my bed
I forget I don't know the name
Of this fragile vessel tethered to the genes inside my head
I'm sure I"m dying now
One by one I'm counting down
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Queen of the Conquest
04:19
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Every night in my world of lust
I got skating down the slopes of your bust
Stopping only to smell your soft skin
We could be such criminals together, lying in the sun
I try to teach myself to taste
Each part of bone, sinew and flesh
That keeps your soul captive inside
We could be such criminals together, living just to run
As you learn to take your own sword
And your bright eyes start to glare for war
I grow jealous of the density of time you're pushing through
I'm the gravity that holds you down
I'm the love that doubts your shield strength
I'm the silver shackles that keep you free
You breath life into me
I'm afraid to face you from below
I'll be blinded by your quiet halo
You're the queen of the conquest
My humble heart is yours
As you tear apart every piece of evil
May I please be a part of your steeple
You're the queen of the conquest
My humble heart is yours
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Courtney Swain Providence, Rhode Island
“A gorgeous blend of overwhelming vocal talent, modern keyboard techniques, and contemporary sophistication.”
— New England Noise
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